Today is the second day of the new year, and tomorrow I go back to work. I have been on maternity leave for the past 3 months. I would rant on how bad the maternity leave policies are in the U.S. and how the government really does not want you to procreate, but I’ll save that for another post. Baby Nico was born on September 26, 2019. He was 10 days early as my actual due date was October 7. I was 38 weeks pregnant and sooooo over being pregnant. So I was happy that little guy decided to arrive early.

Nico’s First Day

It was a super quick delivery, like a 3 hour delivery. Since he was my first baby I had no idea what to expect. All I know is that I hear horror stories of people being in labor for 24 or 36 hours. It all sounded scary. Leading up to my labor, well I actually had no idea I was in labor because I never experienced it before, I was really surprised how fast was. Soon I will update you all on my birth story, but for now lets just say there was pain, I had no epidural, and this baby was not waiting for anyone. The hubby and I were so excited when he arrived, it really is a whole new feeling of love.

Ok, so I have been off from work for the past 3 months and now I have to go back. Tomorrow is Friday. Yes folks, I am going back to work on a Friday. There was actually a method to my crazy plan, I only work a half day on Fridays, so I figured I would go, show up for a few hours and leave. It’s also Nico’s first day at day care, I have extreme mommy anxiety and need to go pick him up as soon as possible. But yes I must go back to work. Now I get to start a new adventure, life as a working mom. I’m not sure how it will compare to that life of living on a rock in the middle of the pacific, but I’m sure it will be interesting.

This has been the fastest 3 months of my life. Like really the fastest 3 months I have ever experienced. Don’t ask me what I did on maternity leave. I have no idea. I had all these great plans, I would write, organize my house, figure out some other ways to make income, and maybe even build enough of an empire to quit my job. How much of that happened? Well, none of it. Raising a newborn is tough. I guess those of you with kids already know that. But really raising a new born is tough. Having kids really is a 24/7 job with no pay. Yet, the reward is great when you see a smile, and know that he is sleeping peacefully. Yes, Yes, I know that was very cliche, but now I actually understand it. Being a parent is a whole new challenge for me. I wish myself and my husband the best of luck.

I go back to work tomorrow. I have major anxiety write now, even as writing this. I feel like it is the first day of school and I am anxious about what will happen. I know it will work out. It’s my job. I’m a psychotherapist, I have been doing therapy for over 15 years! I know how to do therapy. Will Nico be OK without me. I mean we have been together all day every day for the past 3 months. I feel like he needs me. I tried to explain to him this whole day care thing and mommy has to work just like daddy, blah, blah, blah. Yeah I don’t think he got it either. I have to go back to work tomorrow and I don’t want to go.

My plan in my head is to one day just be able to work full time from home. I think I am over doing traditional therapy and need to work on other streams of income. So I am letting you all in on my 2020 goals. Yes, they are the same ones that I did not accomplish in 2019. Work on finishing my books, podcasting, speaking engagments, and being an overall badass. I think I got the badass thing down, now just time to work on the rest.

Well here’s to making life happen in 2020, and enjoying my time back at work!!

Day 2 of 366 days of blogging complete. Hey now! Let’s keep this streak going.