2019 is my year of accomplishing goals. I always feel that I have a lot of goals, but I never really accomplish any of them. That feeling is beginning to suck. Everyday I want to come to this blog and write, but I don’t. Every year I tell myself this will be my year to complete my book. My book is still not finished. I need to finish something. I have a bad habit of struggling to get started because I am afraid of how good the end product will be. Sound strange? Yeah it is.
I am afraid of success. Who is afraid of success. Well ladies and gentlemen that would be me! But this year I want to succeed. I want to win. SO I have decided to tell you about my goals for 2019, and hopefully someone reading this will hold me accountable.
You know what’s strange is that I really do have a lot people to hold me accountable. My husband pushes me to podcast, really, he bought me all the equipment, gave me all the tools, and believes in the product that I can create. My friends support me and can’t wait to hear the show. They believe I can create a good product. And I can! I just freeze when it is time to start. I feel like that one time I jumped off a cliff and into the ocean. I know I can swim, there were a bunch of people before me who did it, it wasn’t impossible, I just need to jump. But I fear to just jump. Well I jumped, and I lived, and it was over, no problem.
I have said this before, I am my own worst enemy. I need to get out of my head. Just live, life happens and it is amazing.
After the hubby and I got married, the next day we left to go on our honeymoon to Spain. Ummmm, can I say AMAZING!!!! It was probably the best week of my like, like ever. We went to Mallorca, it was EVERYTHING and so much more. But everyday I was there, life was great. I said to myself I need to live everyday like it is amazing. No regrets just live. Then we came back, and I got lost back into life. The everyday mundane of life. Work, gym, home. It was like I forgot how it felt to be AMAZING. It felt like it was not possible to live everyday like it was amazing. I want to defy the odds, well its what I have been doing since I started this blog right? No one picks up their life and just moves to Hawaii because, hell what else did life have to offer. My next task, make everyday amazing, and it will be.
So what’s on deck for this year?
Well to launch this podcast, and hopefully I can post it to this blog.
Complete my first novel, finally.
Enjoy my first year of married life.( that’s easy, I think )
I am starting a nutrition challenge on Monday, so healthy eating is back on deck!
And Just WRITE!!! I owe you guys a major update on my life, so I really need to focus on writing and just being present.
So 2019, Here goes nothing.